Today

So on Saturday i was able to set aside my morning to spend it with the Lord and let me tell you did he show up!

I reflected on the week and the trials i encountered from Monday to Friday and really soaked it all in. For me, in order to lay the things down i need to, i have to recount them and truly desire to uncover a accurate depiction of it all. When I was asked how my week was going, conversations such as, "I'm overwhelmed because..., or It has been a rough week..., or is it Friday yet?" All those, which i regret are all negative, actually happened. Though they were honest personal challenges and feelings, life giving they were not. Reflecting on this and sitting in the presence of the God truly is hard, yet is comforting at the same time.

For those who have experienced this feeling understand where i am coming from, for those who haven't, just wait, be patience and you will. There is nothing more rewarding than to reflect and sit before the Lord. His surpassing peace really touched my heart, and even though my week had been rough, it was as if, the trials i faced made me value my escape with Jesus that morning. There i was, sitting in the living room, God and I connecting. PRICELESS!!

The times i spend with God are some of my most precious moments. They stretch beyond the surreal church service, and prayers in the car, to an intimate relationship with someone who loves me more than anything in the world. His arms stretched out, I cry to him and await his response. Tears fall from my eyes as i realize that the week is behind me and i can embrace my struggles, and move on. My accounts of that morning are simply unexplainable. Many times have I sat in the presence of the Lord and been lashing out at him, complaining, judging, doubting, and neglecting every GOOD thing he has done for me.

That morning, all the things culminated into a few key things i needed to work on. Only a short time with God brought out so much in my life as i sought for HIS best. The biggest thing i can thank him for was reminding me of my need for his strength, not my own. The busyness of life had engulfed my fire and passion to lay it all down for HIM and shut me down in all areas. Many things were placed on my shoulders this pass week and i forgot to carry God's yoke and give him mine. But what had this done to me? Why did i just now realize it all?

There is only one way that i fail to see the Big Picture during the week and that is to spend time with him and constantly fight for his presence. From the early morning hours to the evening when the day comes to an end we are called to, pray continually, and meditate on the word day and night. Life, the world, and exhaustion pushed me over the thoughts of spending time with God and hashing things out with him in the moment.

Nothing can be said about tough weeks or times except, PRAISE GOD THAT IT IS OVER, but yet knowing that more will come. It is inevitable we will go through life with trials and sufferings of many kinds. Hard days at work, conflicts between peers and other worldly pressures that are meaningless will set out to destroy your attitude and joy.

When is the last time you looked back at anything to see your faults and struggles, embrace what it is, and step forward for the greater good of the Kingdom of God?